Last November I started making a list of things/events that I was going to do. Mostly I did it because all of the sudden I had a bunch of concerts that I was going to and movies that I wanted to see, so I wrote them out to keep track. All of the sudden I had an event for each month and I loved it. I decided that from now on I'm going to have at least one thing to look forward to each month and that will help me keep chugging along.
I actually feel better than I have in a very long time. I've gone through a rough couple of years, especially after graduating high school and becoming an actual adult. I wouldn't admit it, but I think I was depressed or on the verge of depression. I did get my life together once I returned back to college. I had something to work on and I've just been flowing through the motions. Slowly my family and I started going on more vacations and doing fun things together. We went to Disneyland after not being there in a decade and all of the sudden we were going back for a third time not long after. We started going to this place that does Broadway musicals 3 years ago and made it into a tradition to go every summer.
So this past November I went on my first plane ride, something that I just thought would never happen since it hadn't happened yet. This was on my bucket list. Also I did my first 5k that November, another item on the bucket list. This kicked things off and I started making the list. I'm LDS and in I think one of the conferences a speaker said to always have something to look forward to. This was life changing. Since making this list and having something to be excited about for the next month I've been a lot happier and it's kind of like (forgive me for saying this) a yolo moment. It leaves less room to have depressing thoughts and I feel like I'm living life to the fullest, which is what it is for, to be happy.
AFI is coming back for another round of tours and I thought, but I don't really want to see the other bands with them and I just payed to see them twice. Also they're going to be in Salt Lake City one night and the very next night they'll be in Vegas. So I'll drive up and drive right back down to catch them again. But you know what, they are my favorite band and my sister who is going to do this traveling with me, said it will be a great story to tell, and we'll literally be following the band. Seriously had a yolo moment, so I'm doing it and it's going to be amazing. Plus just another thing for me to look forward to.
It helps especially like with school. Everything can get piled on top of you, but there's a light at the tunnel and having something to look forward to each month helps break up the semester. It's not like you have to wait until summer to be fully happy and free. Also it doesn't have to be anything big, like one of mine was to get a shake at PDQ (delicious!) after I finished my midterms.
So one more thing that I used to think while I was feeling down. I've never told anyone this, but I hope it can help somebody out there. When I was feeling depressed and just like the world was against me, I used to wish that all the problems would go away by me getting really sick and having to be hospitalized. Obviously that wouldn't make problems go away and would probably just create more problems like hospital bills. And it's wrong because there are people out there who are really sick and would probably love to be in my place. Anyways having something to look forward to can change your perspective. Now that I have this list, if I'm in a car with a crazy driver or the wind feels like it's going to blow my car away (because it's like a tin can) I feel like "don't let me die today, I have to see the new Pirates of the Caribbean movie next month!" I know it's silly, but my outlook on life has totally changed and I'm happier. I was even wondering what am I going to do for August, September, October... when I only had it up to July and I got so excited just to find something to add to the list even if it is just for the next month (August).
This has been pretty long, but I hope someone finds this and is inspired. Or even just inspired to make a bucket list and look forward to or working towards checking those things off.
P.S. You can totally steal some of my ideas. Go to my bucket list page and get inspired or copy and paste, whatever floats your boat. I'm updating that thing all the time, so check back whenever you feel like it.
P.P.S. It's totally cool to add something to your bucket list after you did it. It may have been something that you hadn't thought of until you did it, but is definitely bucket list worthy. It's another crossed off item on your list and just adds to your coolness factor.
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